Bump, set.....
I need to say something but I don't know what to say. Story of my life. Anyway, you really got me thinking this afternoon after talking about "polyamory".
You mentioned that you know why you are doing what you are doing, which "props for you". My question is, what ARE you doing? What is this?
I have poured my heart out and received nothing in return. If it's a friendship then say it. Let me grieve and put this to rest; but if upon some miracle, there is actually more to this, then will you please clue me in.
The ball is in the air and it's up to you what you do with it.
I hope this week gives you time to think about what you want. I already know what I want, and I can't keep filling a glass that has a hole in the bottom.
This is the last time I reach out. I can't keep doing this to myself, nor to you for that matter. If what I have to give is not what you want, then let me know. The last thing I want to be is a pest.
I told you I eventually push everyone away. And look at that, I even managed to accomplish that with you, and you said it would never happen.
guess what, you were wrong.

To begin.

I decided to blog here so I could truly say what I am feeling. Too many people know me and I want to vent but don't feel there is anywhere I can do that. So here is a start.

I am in love with someone else. I have the most amazing husband who would never hurt me, but he is not the one I love. I love someone else's husband. She does not deserve him, and he will never be loved by her the way I could love him.

We have been having an affair for over a year and he knows how I feel about him but he won't open up to me. When things first began, we promised each other that we would be honest; but what happens when only one of you is being completely honest.